Blogging From A to Z: Insatiable

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Trying to find something to watch on television the other night and looking for the next thing to graze on as we channel surfed, I wondered why I was looking for more—more entertainment, more food. Why was I feeling so insatiable and not just about TV and food? I knew I wasn’t alone in feeling this way.

On the whole, we have become insatiable in our food, entertainment, and possessions and have become a group of voyeuristic zombies constantly seeking to become fulfilled with the latest he said she said he wore she’s dating gossip. Why do we care? I know I really don’t but I keep going back. I keep going back to my email, feeling insatiable that I may have missed something someone said. I keep finding ways of making and saving money because I feel insatiable in my fear that there is never enough.

We have become insatiable in almost every corner of our lives from feeling that there is never enough of well, everything from food (just look at the increase in portion sizes) to activities (how much after school activities can we cram in for our kids or for that matter, after work and weekends for us adults?). Some would call it greed, but I think it’s more than that. I think we are searching to fulfill a need.

When did we start chasing our own tails looking to fulfill that need and, what exactly is that need? I got tired of always looking for the next whatever and so I started asking myself, why. Why do I feel insatiable with food today? Ah, I’m really bored or I’m feeling fidgety. Why do I feel insatiable about not having enough downtime? Ah, I stayed up late watching that movie on Netflicks last night, and well the night before was a new episode of NCIS, and I agreed to write another article for that magazine.

I realized that on a deep level I was using all these thing to try to fill areas in my life that I was unhappy with. I clearly saw that I was causing my own distractions and insatiable feelings, which were being driven by a need for simplicity and a craving for life choices that were more aligned with my soul and not my ego. In order for me to take this deeper, I had to drill down with bare bones honesty toward myself about myself in my head and my heart to get to this point of recognition and it wasn’t always pretty but the results and realizations are now at least true.

What are we trying to fulfill? What is insatiable for you and why? Taking it deeper one breath at a time.

 

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3 thoughts on “Blogging From A to Z: Insatiable

    • Hi Laurel,
      Without a doubt! I call that watching and reading mind candy and sometimes you do just need to “take your head off”. It’s when you do it ALL the time, that it can start to feel empty. Thanks for your comment!
      Enjoy the A-Zing!
      Renata

  1. Great word, insatiable. I live in a world of never enough: never enough time, enough money, enough ideas, enough recognition, did I mention never enough money? We’re always looking for something more. And then when we get it, it’s still not enough. For me it started in the 80s, the Me decade. That was a crazy decade of corporate climbing, self-indulgence and decadence. I’m trying to wind down and be okay with less, but it’s tough when insatiability is in the driver’s seat. Great post! Lots to ponder…

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